by Jj85 » Sat Nov 28, 2009 3:35 pm
Yeah, it's been a very bizarre past 36 hours. I only got one hour of sleep last night (mainly due, I'm sure, to the fact that I took an adderall at 8pm because I was so excited at the prospect of being able to go out). And right now I'm tired, but I still haven't taken another one, and the last adderalls have definitely run out of my system by now. The weird thing is that it's not a CFS-type tired I have. It's the sort of normal tired that you might feel after not getting a lot of sleep (obviously, a much better feeling).
I don't want to get too excited, obviously, but I feel 100% right now in terms of actual CFS symptoms. CFT, have you tried provigil yourself? My psychiatrist is pretty awesome. Though it's ridiculous that I have to have a psychiatrist for this disease to get certain meds, she is very liberal with the prescriptions.
Stardust, completely agree. Right now I'm on the 20mg fast release (which are supposedly out of your system in 5 hours or so). I'm really worried about dependency/resistance to anything, which is why I only take Klonopin when I really need it. I plan on doing the same with this stuff. Just gotta get through the next 3 weeks of school, and then a glorious month off...
I do worry, though, that long-term, stimulating my brain is the wrong way to go with this. For the Gupta followers out there, I had a thought: if I can feel good enough for long enough on this stuff, maybe the adrenal cycle will finally break as my amygdala calms down (right now, I'm not stressed about school or anything else at all, which in theory, should really help).