I relate to that "kill" feeling. Its so intense...like i am just taken over. because the internal battle is so intense, and your just hanging on, when that tiny little something extra comes along (for me it is noise), I just have this anger response. I hate it and at times I hate myself. Its usually those i love who cop it.
Hey, I gotta laugh too...most things these days (products) dont work right. They are absolute shite!! And so yes, they tend to cop it as well when the frustration boils over.