yeah you're right I can do that sometimes but not always like for ex if I have sthg coming up that i've been preparing for months like for ex a trip somewhere with a friend, then my stress will be extremely high cos it's like I can't cancel a whole trip + i'm not the only one involved as my friend is waiting for me and also it's not only the stress of having to cancel it's also the furstration and the anger of not being ok enough to do what i've been waiting for weeks to do, we need to see people etc to be happy you know? and its like this insomnia wins again if I let it sabotage me, although of course I do that to myself, part of anyway. I'm working on it, not easy! Alos I have a very light sleep so wake up at any noise, even with ear plugs I wake up easily, it's mad. Maybe if my amgdaa was not on high alert my sleep would not be disturbed so easily.