by billoddie » Sun Aug 15, 2010 8:38 pm
I understand your point about fun and its valid. My fun is exercising...gym, boxing etc...but the reality is I just cant do as much as I would like. Video games are the same...but beyond a "healthy" level can only be detrimental to your fatigue. Meditation is always boring to a busy mind because it wants to be entertained. True meditation (which does take time to "get") is profoundly relaxing. Playing video games allows you to take your mind off your symptoms...I understand that. But it also limits your ability to REALLY listen to your body. Only recently have I been able to "get back into my body" and actually inhabit it. Gupta, meditation etc allowed to slow down internally for this to actually BEGIN to happen. I have said it before to others...when you are "stuck" in your symptoms you cant get an accurate perspective of yourself...the mind and its machinations are linked in with this illness. You are kidding yourself if you think otherwise. Playing too much video games only serves to perpetuate the inner speed and mind machinations. The reality is you able not able to see this until something like Gupta (doesn't have to be just Gupta) lets the body get off that high alert footing. Only then does some space come. The insights and realizations I had about my illness were remarkable when i first stated Gupta (13 months ago). I simply was not able to see in my prior state.
As one of my favorite boxers, Joe Louis was fond of saying..."Each man is entitled to make his own mistakes".
I think its a mistake to play too much video (just like my exercise), but your entitled to do it. Its only when you decide that your time can be used more productively will you decide to do so.