Just a note to say...

[Rita M.]

Hi my name is Rita, I'm twenty two years old. I've been living with chronic wide-spread pain and fatigue for 6 years now. My doctors suspect it's Fibromyalgia. I wrote the following in my journal two years ago. I was in a horrible state. I didn't leave my bed for months. When I write, it somehow helps with my pain, hope it helps at least one person out there.

I sit here only to wonder what life has in store for me. I want a healthy body, a beautiful mind, a peaceful soul and a loving heart. With guidance and help from God and the angels of his, I know with the greatest of convictions that my existence will not go in vain, that my pain will not kill me. It will make me learn greater lessons than I thought I would ever learn.
When I look back on the twenty years I've lived to this day, I can't help but to know I've become wiser through my suffering of deep emotional, spiritual and last but not least, physical pain. I sometimes get angry with God, asking him why he makes me go through this entire struggle, this whirlwind of a never-ending battle within. Some days, I have no answer. On others, when I slow down and listen to what life is offering me, I begin to hear all the answers so clearly and loudly. Things start making sense again. I know with time, my heart, along with my body will heal. I will become healthier and happier than I ever thought I would be. For now, I sit still. I water my patience so carefully; I make it bathe under the glowing and heating sun. I nurture my patience with love from God, the angels and myself. I wait for that glory filled day, when pain will no longer coexist with any part of my body. The day I will finally become liberated from these fatal chains and be finally set free from this prison of physical torment. I will see the light of day again. I will run in the fields of peace, with a mind and body that will radiate health. I will live my life the way a twenty-year-old girl should live her life.
How long do I have to wait? I do not know for sure. What is certain to my core, to my very own existence is that I will take in all that this moment has for me, all that the present has to offer. That's all I have right now that will help me get through this long and arduous journey of mine. With its rocks and hills that have made me crumble and fall, I will rise again to its peak. I will stand on its mountain only to see the beauty of this world and life, through its good and through its bad. We’ll realize that heaven will shine all around us and through us, if only we've fallen and had the strength and will to stand up tall again. No matter how hard we've been pushed, somewhere deep inside ourselves, we will find the meaning of it all. Only in sweet time will you begin to see the pieces of your puzzled life entwine in a mosaic masterpiece of every bitter and sweet moment you've lived and breathed.

[alicewoolf]

It's amazing that you can write so positively and eloquently when you're suffering so much, and so young!. I think all of us here on this site long to be well and FREE of this horrible illness so your writing is sure to strike a chord with people here. You say you wrote this 2 years ago, how are you now? Are you following any particular treatment protocol for your fibromyalgia? I had pretty bad muscle pain at the moment and could do with some tips from someone who knows!

[Rita M.]

hey,
thank you for writing back:) I'm 22 now and I haven't gone through big treatments. I just found out recently that it's most probably fibromyalgia that i have. I've been trying to deal with the pain for 6 years now. I see my chiropractor regularly and I've been seeing him for 2 and a half years now. He helped me a lot with my posture and that took some of the pressure off. I also see an acupuncturist, a massage therapist and I want to try seeing an osteopath as well. My doctors want me to take Lyrica, but i'm afraid and worried about taking pills. I'm also trying to change my diet. I had to leave school for 4 years, because I couldn't handle the pain and the fatigue. now i'm back in school and i've never been happier. but i can only handle 2-3 days of work per week. I get exhausted very easily. I barely go out with my friends, because i always feel the need to sleep or lie down to not feel pain.Well you know how it is. How long have you had it?And what do you do that helps you?I would love to know.
thank you again for taking the time to write back, i appreciate
God Bless!