Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia

mac · Posted: Sat Jun 07, 2008 7:05 am Post subject: What is this?

What is chronic fatigue to you?

To me it is a thing that takes away life from a life that wants to live.

I am new here to this forum. Chronic fatigue is a thing I would rather not live with. I am wanting it gone!

Found this forum up late this night drinking away a two day episode and just tired of it all. I am awake with all the alcohol - but i wish there were a better way for me. If you could look into my eyes you would see a faded life. behind that would be me - a life needing a life.

A life faded by chronic fatigue. and on a verge of meaning. what am i to do with myself when i can not even get myself out of bed in the morning to do anything resembling a meaningful life? What do you do when you get up in the morning?

I just either do something - like take a shower and vacuum the rug, or just go back to bed if i feel too tired to accomplish just those things. At this time of writing i am not good. i have not even taken a shower in 4 days or brushed my teeth.

Chronic fatigue to me is - i just want it to go away.

I am going to go back to sleep. The drinking can only go so far. I started last night because i just wanted to drink it out of my system. I knew the chronic fatigue was coming back. So two days on, getting plastered this night/early morning will surely put it all to rest. And on top of that i will pop a few sleeping pills to make sure i sleep all the way through tomorrow. So maybe when i wake up the day after, the chronic fatigue will be gone again.

Sure, i have done this sort of thing many times before. But there must be an end for me. I dont want to live my life with chronic fatigue! I dont want anyone who reads this to do what i do! But i do hope that anyone who does read this, and understands what i am going through, to be my friend.

To me, chronic fatigue is too much to handle alone. I need to know that someone else goes through what i do.

I am new to this forum, when i wake up some time later, i will explore it in more detail later - whenever i have the energy. I will also see if my first post has gotten responses/feedback.

good night Crying or Very sad

jojo · Posted: Sat Jun 07, 2008 10:25 am Post subject:

are you saying that drinking make you feel better?
It kind of does for me, for the short term, but then i feel 10x sicker for about a week after. Sometimes it is a nice escape though, but the repercussions of it are not fun.

sisao · Posted: Sat Jun 07, 2008 10:58 am Post subject:

Yes.
Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is horrible. It is a thief that comes in the night and leaves you broken and bare upon waking. Stay strong though my friend, tomorrow might bring pain but it also might bring hope. Do you have any family that can provide support through this tough time? If so lthen lean on them - just knowing that you are not alone is a relief in and of itself. Also, if you haven't already I recommend seeing an infectious deisease doctor or immunologist/rheumatologist. Just making an appointment will give you some solace knowing that you are stepping in the right direction. Tomorrow may bring with it the cure for this illness!

mac · Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 1:41 pm Post subject:

Thanks for the feedback. The drinking makes me feel better for the short term only. It is an escape. The days afterward i feel horrible again. But it is not that much of a difference because i was going to feel horrible anyway. I just did it out of desperation. I was also very angry at me CFS. i do need to find a better way to deal with this though. I plan to go see a doctor when i have enough energy to do so.

My family knows about my condition. I do have them for support. It is a few days on and i still am lethargic. I look forward to the day i get up and get myself back together. Work has piled up for me. At present i have resolved to just spend my days in bed. These bouts last anwhere from a couple of days to about 3 weeks. Plus i have jury duty this week. Sucks. dont know how i will manage that.

Thanks again. i dont feel alone in this CFS stuff anymore.

Tina · Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 3:24 pm Post subject:

it is very hard to deal with, i would definately agree with you. But, there are some things that seem to be promising. I hear that people are doing better on the yasko protocol, some people are helped taking valtrex, and some people like kenvj here are doing good on the gupta programme.

There defiantely arent a ton of options but i feel like things are moving in a better direction as far as treatments go.

Also some people have recovered by using these treatments, so there is that possibilty and you can always think about that when you get bummed out.

Hope you feel better.

Tina

Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Fibromyalgia

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